I am at work just now and I didn't realise the date! It made me feel so guilty....but I have been really out of sorts the last couple of days and tired and emotional and even though my head didn't register the date, obviously my soul and heart did. Maybe I am trying not to focus on this date, maybe I should focus more on anniversaries of good things....like your birthday, our wedding anniversary....the day we first starting writing to each other (I still have copies of all your emails....a journey I travelled recently re-reading them all and being transported back to when it all began). Well, Jamie is now going out with a really nice girl from Glasgow and they are going to Florida for 2 weeks in May. Craig is still with Tasha and they are going away for a year travelling in November. They've bought their tickets for Bangkok, Australia and New Zealand and I won't see them for a year! I will miss him so much but it is a great opportunity for both of them. Look after them both please Al, keep them safe! I am off to Turkey with my friend in June. You never ever met her Al. She is someone I used to know when the kids were small but we re-acquainted and now are good friends. You wouldn't recognise me now. I go to Zumba 3 times a week and am not the out of condition person you used to know. I wouldn't say I can run a marathon but I am so much healthier and fitter. I went to see another friend who practices Reiki and she said you were in the room with me. Were you really? Its unfair how she could sense you but I couldn't! With you loud booming voice and strong personality can't you maybe try to get my attention - don't scare me though! :-) Al, I still think of you all the time, I still miss you and I will never get over that. But I am going to be ok, someone told me that you have accepted that it was your time to go and the thought you have peace of mind now makes me feel a bit better. I am part time at work now (not by choice). My hours were cut to 28 per week starting yesterday so I haven't felt the impact financially yet. It is nice to leave early but I could do with a little help from you to get a new job...that would be nice. Thanks Al. Love you so much always in my heart and head and everywhere! xx