It has now been 4 weeks since you left. I have been missing you so much. The house isn't the same without your 'loudness' and 'grumbles', haha! The boys are doing ok, still working away and still the same girlfriends. I am still being 'too emotional' like you always say I am! I'm trying hard to work on that though and know you would hate it if I was sitting here feeling sorry for myself all the time.....Nothing's the same without you though. x Today, Sunday 4th May, has been quite bad. I keep seeing things that remind me of you and everywhere I look in our living room I see little things you bought, that bust of tutenkhamen, the chinese vase you got at the second hand shop, the candles you bought me, the clock you insisted upon. It makes me feel happy and sad all at the same time. Marie just came up and we had a talk about you (all nice things) and then we had a coffee and just talked 'girl' talk for a while. I could imagine you smiling at us talking away ten to the dozen and not understanding a word we said! I'm going up to Asda just now, not for anything in particular, but just to get out of the house, clear my head a bit. Love you x